I told you so!

I have been trying to think of another topic to write about other than the wedding, but aside from work, that’s all that I think about and work on. Even with 99% of everything done I still have this overall feeling of stress and uneasiness. I can’t quite put my finger on what it is. I’m not stressing about being married and I don’t have cold feet. I think it’s just the anxiety of putting on such a big event. There is so much detail and planning that has gone into this one evening. I know everything will be fine, but I just can’t seem to relax. I am hoping that by tomorrow (the rehearsal dinner) I will have realized that everything is ready and it’s time for me to enjoy myself. I don’t even know why I’m stressing. Vanessa did 75% of the work anyway.

Looking back I really wish we had kept the wedding small and simple. Even with 150+ people there are still people who are hurt they weren’t invited. They money would have been better off put towards something else (like a house). It was my decision to have a big wedding. I’m the type of person that gets a picture in my head and that’s all I can see. I guess I have always envisioned a big wedding in my mind. My goal is just to have a good time and enjoy the moment.
The most interesting part is listening to everyone’s advice. Everyone is trying to tell me about how everything will change once we are married. I am not naïve enough to think that nothing will change, but we have been living together for four years now. Vanessa and I stopped trying to impress each other years ago. I don’t see any major changes happening. I think the big changes come once you have kids. That’s a whole other topic that won’t be discussed on this website for a while.